Monday, September 29, 2003
oh no...sigh...oh dear...ching its ok...rathi its ok...oh dear...why do screwed up things happen to good pple?
ching...its not ur fault...even rathi said so...haiz...i know no matter wat i say u'll continue to feel shitty...oh dear.........
rathi...besides the phone wat's happenning?
eveyone's life's screwed up now
sigh
aio
so sad.......................................................
ching...its not ur fault...even rathi said so...haiz...i know no matter wat i say u'll continue to feel shitty...oh dear.........
rathi...besides the phone wat's happenning?
eveyone's life's screwed up now
sigh
aio
so sad.......................................................
sigh....hate my life man....thot i wud be free from trouble but no...life is fucked up!!....oh well..shit...first i get the fucking news that my fone is lost..not her fault nvm..she was too drunk to noe weder any of the fucked up angmoh's stole it or it dropped in the cab...whatevr...yah then, i bent my fucking glasses...and it broke...yah...how exciting right??everything in my life is so messed up now thats it amazing u noe...like as if, a jigsaw puzzle has been fixed...the jigsaw of a fucked up world...i am feeling terrible...dun wanna show it...cat seem to pull it off...but yah...it hurts...memories are something i mean to keep...but its gone...not all will noe the significance...but fuck it...oh well...things are meant to happen...for good or for bad...i dunno and i dun care..
ching: no point blaming urself...i mean, whats happend has happened...u apologise also no use...but yah, not ur fault..might have been pickpocketed...just ur luck..and of course, mine...so yah...noithing we can do...just be careful nex time...
ching: no point blaming urself...i mean, whats happend has happened...u apologise also no use...but yah, not ur fault..might have been pickpocketed...just ur luck..and of course, mine...so yah...noithing we can do...just be careful nex time...
Saturday, September 27, 2003
i have a problem...recently i haven't been able to sleep...this has been goin on for like a week...i fall asleep between 4 and 6 and i wake up between 1 and 3...no matter how hard i try i just CAN'T fall asleep...when i try to sleep earlier i end up tossing and turning...haiz...my fren said i need help...need to see a doc...becoming an insomniac i think...
so now i'm awake doin my tutorial when i've to wake up at 7.30 tmr morning.and yes its 1.30.i'm scared i dun wake up tmr...like if i dun hear my alarm go off...i'll miss tutorial...ok lah if i miss once won't die but there's a test next wk i shouldn't miss it incase they give any hints...and i dun reli know anyone in the tutorial grp...maybe later i'll try watching the arsenal newcastle match and bore myself to sleep...hahahaha
oh did i tell u guys...i bumped into saif on wednesday...yes my ex...the very same...we talked for abt 10 minutes...he asked for my number...still wants to keep in touch...kiong...yah then he msged me that nite and said that if i'm free for coffee sometime i have to call him...yeah and i barely hsve time to finish all my work...
problematic case...i think this is the third entry in a row...argh..i think for tmr's tut i'll try and smoke my way thru it...damn saturday tutorial...tmr got dental too...sigh...preparing myself for pain tmr...he's gonna put in a bracket...and yank the tooth straight...and may have to extract wisdom tooth...........*doom and gloom*
like nothin fantastic is goin on in my life now...no silver lining...everything looks bleak and grey and blah.
i FEEL blah...
amele...jan
so now i'm awake doin my tutorial when i've to wake up at 7.30 tmr morning.and yes its 1.30.i'm scared i dun wake up tmr...like if i dun hear my alarm go off...i'll miss tutorial...ok lah if i miss once won't die but there's a test next wk i shouldn't miss it incase they give any hints...and i dun reli know anyone in the tutorial grp...maybe later i'll try watching the arsenal newcastle match and bore myself to sleep...hahahaha
oh did i tell u guys...i bumped into saif on wednesday...yes my ex...the very same...we talked for abt 10 minutes...he asked for my number...still wants to keep in touch...kiong...yah then he msged me that nite and said that if i'm free for coffee sometime i have to call him...yeah and i barely hsve time to finish all my work...
problematic case...i think this is the third entry in a row...argh..i think for tmr's tut i'll try and smoke my way thru it...damn saturday tutorial...tmr got dental too...sigh...preparing myself for pain tmr...he's gonna put in a bracket...and yank the tooth straight...and may have to extract wisdom tooth...........*doom and gloom*
like nothin fantastic is goin on in my life now...no silver lining...everything looks bleak and grey and blah.
i FEEL blah...
amele...jan
Friday, September 26, 2003
i almost created my own blog...then i realised i've got nothing to do with it anyway...i mean i write in my diary....thats more than enough...and i can't reli express myself on a website...seems too impersonal to me...
and yes darling jes i've alot on my mind...guy problems money problems school problems...i dunno if i'm getting myself into trouble or it was there all along waiting to explode in my face...
and yes darling jes i've alot on my mind...guy problems money problems school problems...i dunno if i'm getting myself into trouble or it was there all along waiting to explode in my face...
yes jes i still love u...don't be silly...our relationship is deeper than that...and i can't hold a grudge...
i wanna change my phone...but how do i do that without spending loads of cash?i dun have to money to jst throw around...but i reli reli reli wanna change my phone...i like the seimens sm55...the scorpian one that they're advertising now.but i still have a contract on my this phone.so wat i've to do is trade in my 8250 for $140.the phone costs $28 with any plan to i switch to mtv code?yah then cos i have outstanding contract so must pay phone price plus $100.so i've to pay $128 rite?bingo...i use the money that i got from trading in my 8250 and i still have $12 left over.hows my brilliant plan?thats provided i can switch like just to mtv code or stick to powerchat100 lar...if they ask me to take the more ex one they can go and die reli....i need more sms...oh ya i was planning to sign up for the pod lite rite but turns out i owe singtel $40+ for...get this...my old PAGER?!?!?i almost died.so that one can wait till next month.sigh.......if the world was perfect i could have a 7250...if only i hadn't bought my own laptop...sigh....but i lurve my lappy dearest...yes yes i'm losing it.......
jes...go to www.friendster.com and just sign in as new user.then under gallery,user search look for me (janani) or ching or rathi.from there u'll find everyone else...i found my primary school fren!!!its amazing reli...
ching u blind bat thats jes's entry below not mine!!!!!!!!i can't extort money from my dad!how i wish i could....
i wanna colour my hair...any suggesstions?i was thinking deep purple streaks....
i wanna change my phone...but how do i do that without spending loads of cash?i dun have to money to jst throw around...but i reli reli reli wanna change my phone...i like the seimens sm55...the scorpian one that they're advertising now.but i still have a contract on my this phone.so wat i've to do is trade in my 8250 for $140.the phone costs $28 with any plan to i switch to mtv code?yah then cos i have outstanding contract so must pay phone price plus $100.so i've to pay $128 rite?bingo...i use the money that i got from trading in my 8250 and i still have $12 left over.hows my brilliant plan?thats provided i can switch like just to mtv code or stick to powerchat100 lar...if they ask me to take the more ex one they can go and die reli....i need more sms...oh ya i was planning to sign up for the pod lite rite but turns out i owe singtel $40+ for...get this...my old PAGER?!?!?i almost died.so that one can wait till next month.sigh.......if the world was perfect i could have a 7250...if only i hadn't bought my own laptop...sigh....but i lurve my lappy dearest...yes yes i'm losing it.......
jes...go to www.friendster.com and just sign in as new user.then under gallery,user search look for me (janani) or ching or rathi.from there u'll find everyone else...i found my primary school fren!!!its amazing reli...
ching u blind bat thats jes's entry below not mine!!!!!!!!i can't extort money from my dad!how i wish i could....
i wanna colour my hair...any suggesstions?i was thinking deep purple streaks....
hey chingster the pics we took that time at suntec...can u post it somewhere so i can get them? thanks babe...
Thursday, September 25, 2003
YES.is it hardly surpiring that it got cancelled?remind me never to get excited.anyway my frens from school have decided to make next wednesday phuture outing for the bunch of us.so i'll hopefully be going with them.if i have the money.which i should cos jes is keeping it in her trust fund for me.rite jes?
paolo last minute said he cud make it.that was the heart breaking thing.oh well.this is wat i get for trying to plan in ADVANCE so that everyone can make it.that coupled with the fact that my dearest clubbing khaki is in AUSTRALIA!!!miss u ching...
but now its 1.30 am and nobody's online.been msgin jes but no replies.i have to design a poster cos i plan to join the publicity com in arts club.thats our equivelent of a student council.tmr i'm also going down to the office of student affairs to see if i can get a room on campus.apparently there are still a few rooms empty.i might get it.
life sucks doesn't it.for once i wish something would happen right,just as i planned.but no.
why do i even bother.
guys are a bunch of losers as my pmsing fren charlene would put it.(yesterday she was walking around the whole school with her hand on her hip and calling everyone who irritated her 'bunch of losers'.this is wat ur period does to u)can't they just shut up and keep their stupid feelings to themselves?
khadijah is rite of course.the problem is not him.its me.in all these 2 years of being single i've ultra successfully built walls around me.i can walk away or break off any relationship now without a scratch.which is of course not good.cos all that leaves me with is sad lonely and bitter and i don't want to be that.but its taken quite awhile to build the walls and its gonna take a helluva lot longer to bring them down.
if u dun understand anything i've been saying just ignore it.don't ask me wats happening.i don't think i'll respond.cos truthfully i don't quite know myself.maybe i do know but rite now its all one huge jumbled mess and i need to take some time to make sense of it.
rathi...yeah i'm not surprised u got love...anyone surprised at mine?hmmm if i had done the quiz in the mood i'm in now i may have gotten a different result.lemme go try and see.
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this is wat i got.hardly surprising isn't it?well well well.
paolo last minute said he cud make it.that was the heart breaking thing.oh well.this is wat i get for trying to plan in ADVANCE so that everyone can make it.that coupled with the fact that my dearest clubbing khaki is in AUSTRALIA!!!miss u ching...
but now its 1.30 am and nobody's online.been msgin jes but no replies.i have to design a poster cos i plan to join the publicity com in arts club.thats our equivelent of a student council.tmr i'm also going down to the office of student affairs to see if i can get a room on campus.apparently there are still a few rooms empty.i might get it.
life sucks doesn't it.for once i wish something would happen right,just as i planned.but no.
why do i even bother.
guys are a bunch of losers as my pmsing fren charlene would put it.(yesterday she was walking around the whole school with her hand on her hip and calling everyone who irritated her 'bunch of losers'.this is wat ur period does to u)can't they just shut up and keep their stupid feelings to themselves?
khadijah is rite of course.the problem is not him.its me.in all these 2 years of being single i've ultra successfully built walls around me.i can walk away or break off any relationship now without a scratch.which is of course not good.cos all that leaves me with is sad lonely and bitter and i don't want to be that.but its taken quite awhile to build the walls and its gonna take a helluva lot longer to bring them down.
if u dun understand anything i've been saying just ignore it.don't ask me wats happening.i don't think i'll respond.cos truthfully i don't quite know myself.maybe i do know but rite now its all one huge jumbled mess and i need to take some time to make sense of it.
rathi...yeah i'm not surprised u got love...anyone surprised at mine?hmmm if i had done the quiz in the mood i'm in now i may have gotten a different result.lemme go try and see.
Hades
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this is wat i got.hardly surprising isn't it?well well well.
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
Always see it on T.V.or read it in the magazines
Celebrities want sympathy
All they do is piss and moan inside the Rolling Stone
Talking about how hard life can be
I'd like to see them spend the week livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive
If they could spend a day or two walking in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
They would fall (fall)
Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complaining, always complaining
If money is such a problem
Well they got mansions
Think we should rob them
Did you know when you were famous
You could kill your wife and there's no such thing as
25 to life as long as you've got the cash to pay for Cochran
And did you know if you were caught and you were smoking crack
McDonald's wouldn't even want to take you back
You could always just run for mayor of D.C.
I'd like to see them spend the week livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive
If they could spend a day or two walking in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
They would fall (fall)
Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complaining, always complaining
If money is such a problem
Well they got mansions
Think we should rob them
Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complaining, always complaining
If money is such a problem
You got so many problems
Think I could solve them
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
We'll take your clothes, cash cards, and homes just stop complaining
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
how?anybody on with the plan?lets rob someone...who shall we rob?lim jinn?swee choo?hahahahaha...seriously lor these pple got money also wasted...fashion catastrophe.
JES...even if the top costs 50 rite, look at it as an investment.esprit tops last lor its not like some $5 top u buy and its ruined in the wash....and even if ur mom WANTS to stretch it she can't.ur payin for the quality...i have a few clothes that cost me a bomb too...and they last.like my levis jeans.scrimp and scrounge and save but i finally got it.my mom still has her old levi's jeans which she bought 20 years ago can....
yar...eh jes u better join the friendster.com thing man its super cool...i found losta frens whom i lost touch with.singapore is so small u'll sure find someone who knows someone who knows someone...=)
Celebrities want sympathy
All they do is piss and moan inside the Rolling Stone
Talking about how hard life can be
I'd like to see them spend the week livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive
If they could spend a day or two walking in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
They would fall (fall)
Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complaining, always complaining
If money is such a problem
Well they got mansions
Think we should rob them
Did you know when you were famous
You could kill your wife and there's no such thing as
25 to life as long as you've got the cash to pay for Cochran
And did you know if you were caught and you were smoking crack
McDonald's wouldn't even want to take you back
You could always just run for mayor of D.C.
I'd like to see them spend the week livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive
If they could spend a day or two walking in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
They would fall (fall)
Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complaining, always complaining
If money is such a problem
Well they got mansions
Think we should rob them
Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complaining, always complaining
If money is such a problem
You got so many problems
Think I could solve them
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
We'll take your clothes, cash cards, and homes just stop complaining
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
how?anybody on with the plan?lets rob someone...who shall we rob?lim jinn?swee choo?hahahahaha...seriously lor these pple got money also wasted...fashion catastrophe.
JES...even if the top costs 50 rite, look at it as an investment.esprit tops last lor its not like some $5 top u buy and its ruined in the wash....and even if ur mom WANTS to stretch it she can't.ur payin for the quality...i have a few clothes that cost me a bomb too...and they last.like my levis jeans.scrimp and scrounge and save but i finally got it.my mom still has her old levi's jeans which she bought 20 years ago can....
yar...eh jes u better join the friendster.com thing man its super cool...i found losta frens whom i lost touch with.singapore is so small u'll sure find someone who knows someone who knows someone...=)
haha....why am i not suprised of my result...??....well well....sigh....
Aphrodite/Eros
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erm.....okok....chill with the vulgarities man...haha...jes, if u want cheap cars that will get u from point a to point b.l..come here and get a car...it will cost u abt $1000...haha...yep yep...so yah, if u want, migrate here la uh...then no need to worry abt buying cheap cheap car....sigh
i am so fucking depressed now...just came back from my m&c exam...its reallie shitty...slept for 2 hrs last night and went for exam today...and guess what? my paper was so fucked up...i just shudnt even studied till so late man...dammit...my maths was taxing...my m&c was screwed...tmrw, econs mcq...probably gonna screw that as well..and yah, psyc on fri...that one confirm will screw up coz got so much to do, dunno how its gonne go up my pee-brain of a brain...i think i shud get a refund for half a yr and go back to singapore....go to mcpherson ite...or balestier....if those places are full, can always go bedok or tampines ite...i'm sure one of these places wud want me...sigh....i dunno what to do... i am feeling so lost now that i have literally no feelings coming outta me...i just ahve SO many things up my minds...not only mine...but others too...i think maybe i just shudnt think so much...i realised it does more harm than any good at all...sigh...argh! going mad....
i need sleep...drank 1.1/2 cans of red bull...dun feel sleepy but yet feel sleepy...sigh...dunno la...i think i am losing it...blog later...ciao!
Aphrodite/Eros
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erm.....okok....chill with the vulgarities man...haha...jes, if u want cheap cars that will get u from point a to point b.l..come here and get a car...it will cost u abt $1000...haha...yep yep...so yah, if u want, migrate here la uh...then no need to worry abt buying cheap cheap car....sigh
i am so fucking depressed now...just came back from my m&c exam...its reallie shitty...slept for 2 hrs last night and went for exam today...and guess what? my paper was so fucked up...i just shudnt even studied till so late man...dammit...my maths was taxing...my m&c was screwed...tmrw, econs mcq...probably gonna screw that as well..and yah, psyc on fri...that one confirm will screw up coz got so much to do, dunno how its gonne go up my pee-brain of a brain...i think i shud get a refund for half a yr and go back to singapore....go to mcpherson ite...or balestier....if those places are full, can always go bedok or tampines ite...i'm sure one of these places wud want me...sigh....i dunno what to do... i am feeling so lost now that i have literally no feelings coming outta me...i just ahve SO many things up my minds...not only mine...but others too...i think maybe i just shudnt think so much...i realised it does more harm than any good at all...sigh...argh! going mad....
i need sleep...drank 1.1/2 cans of red bull...dun feel sleepy but yet feel sleepy...sigh...dunno la...i think i am losing it...blog later...ciao!
Morpheus
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hmmm...first i'm neo then morpheous....my life is one big matrix trilogy....
ok damn excited bout tmr!!!!yay!!!
gosh why do all the wrong guys profess to have feelings for me.................*rolls eyes* but i'm not the sort to go and get attached just cos the opportunity is there........heck i dun even know wat i want in a guy....so i guess i shud just stay away from relationships...i think i have a phobia for relationships....
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
elo.
tis jan.
remember me?
ya.
today had lecture.
then hungry so went home.
dinner.
went to airport to study.
with paolo.
if u rearrange paolo's name can get apolo.
anyway.
talked to the manager.
he used to work at the downstairs coffee bean.
almost asked him if he's seen terence lately.
but didn't.
chicken.
jes.
i think u tearing cos pmsing.
dun wori.
wednesday will be fine.
rathi.
relax.
exams will be fine if u focus and keep ur head.
ching.
pls pls study.
dun get too distracted by xw.
quite worried for u.
sheryl.
dun be too stoned.
a few more days.
hang on.
i'm damn exhausted.
headache.
gonna finish reading my text.
then sleep.
nitez.
tis jan.
remember me?
ya.
today had lecture.
then hungry so went home.
dinner.
went to airport to study.
with paolo.
if u rearrange paolo's name can get apolo.
anyway.
talked to the manager.
he used to work at the downstairs coffee bean.
almost asked him if he's seen terence lately.
but didn't.
chicken.
jes.
i think u tearing cos pmsing.
dun wori.
wednesday will be fine.
rathi.
relax.
exams will be fine if u focus and keep ur head.
ching.
pls pls study.
dun get too distracted by xw.
quite worried for u.
sheryl.
dun be too stoned.
a few more days.
hang on.
i'm damn exhausted.
headache.
gonna finish reading my text.
then sleep.
nitez.
Monday, September 22, 2003
exams sucked....maths was taxing on my small brain...sigh...3 more days of exams....wish me luck...catch ya guys later...love u all lots....
wah lau i swear jes u better not play me out again k must must go on wednesday!!!!!!!after this wednesday i doubt me or phee can make it....EXAMS!!paolo too....its this wednesday or nothing at all!!!and dun worry lah u'll be fine!u shouldn't let ur 'ting' hamper u....i went clubbing on my first day before eventually u'll have so much fun u won't remember that its there....jeslynnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn........i'll cry.....................................
Saturday, September 20, 2003
wah today FINALLY meeting jes...like not postponed for how many weeks liao...plus our phuture outing on wednesday...can't wait man i heard its the best rnb club around...=)i haven't been clubbing with u guys yet...see me dance i think u guys will die...
i'm pulling my hair out over this philo essay due on monday...its like i got losta things to say but i dunno how to frame my essay...history essay topics just came out and the pol science essay is due in oct...then exams in nov and i'm DONE...for the year that is...
on the topic of parents...
my parent sgoing to kl in dec...yah and my mom's pulling the whole ur frens more impt than ur family thing...yah...and me too with the money problem...hopefully i have enuff...rite now all my money going to my phone bill...today gonna sign up for singtel pod lite for the sms...should save me some money...yepz...
zippedidoodaaa zippedidaayyy my oh my what a horrible day.......i noe thats not how the song goes...
k i better run...meetin slave jes at 6.30...the queen jan must set a good example for her slaves by being punctual...ahahahahahahahaha she's so gonna kill me.....
love u guys...=)
i'm pulling my hair out over this philo essay due on monday...its like i got losta things to say but i dunno how to frame my essay...history essay topics just came out and the pol science essay is due in oct...then exams in nov and i'm DONE...for the year that is...
on the topic of parents...
my parent sgoing to kl in dec...yah and my mom's pulling the whole ur frens more impt than ur family thing...yah...and me too with the money problem...hopefully i have enuff...rite now all my money going to my phone bill...today gonna sign up for singtel pod lite for the sms...should save me some money...yepz...
zippedidoodaaa zippedidaayyy my oh my what a horrible day.......i noe thats not how the song goes...
k i better run...meetin slave jes at 6.30...the queen jan must set a good example for her slaves by being punctual...ahahahahahahahaha she's so gonna kill me.....
love u guys...=)
Thursday, September 18, 2003
sheryl...i totally get what ur going thru...its like on top of ur exam stress and stuff u've got all this unecessary crap to deal with...i know its horrid but just hang in there...less than 70 days left rite...thats it...its not an eternity tho it may seem that way...its gonne be over before u know it...and trust me next year u'll actually miss all the stress and studying...haha...
after 12 years of doing crap that u don't enjoy in uni u'll get to do what u enjoy doing...u dun have to take maths if u dun wanna and u can just choose to do what u want...the teachers are rite when they say just cross this hurdle and everything will be fine after that...i'm not saying uni is completely stress-free but at least u enjoy the subjects ur taking...like i'm taking philosophy which i totally enjoy...its mind boggling and i've a 2000 word essay due monday but its actually fun.i'm willingly doing it.i dun have to force myself to sit down and do the essay.its good stress.i bet u can't really imagine urself wanting to study rite now but trust me...just get thru this and everything will be totally fine...
imagine what i was going thru last yr lor...with my parents and all...its a miracle i got thru my a's really....
keep reminding urself that its just a few more days...then u'll be flying to laces all over the world rite...=)
my mom said that she's afraid of me...cos whenever she argues with me i shoot back at her and say hurting things...but i'm like that.i'm not very good at mincing my words.but do try.but when i'm upset all that goes out the window.i don't mean to hurt her..........sigh....i mean she's the one who betrayed my trust.why is it that i'm feeling shitty then?
rathi...dun be too stressed lah...maybe u did play a bit too much but now no choice la...u reap what u sow...i also left all my reading to the last minute...haven't finished one text and we're starting on another one next week.wah its crazy man 6 texts in 3 months?!?!?!we did 6 texts for 2 years lor in jc........
anyway i think this song by robbie's really appropriate now...
Something Beautiful
You can’t manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful - that day.
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical - these days
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign, the loving kind
every night you admit defeat
and cry yourself blind
Chorus
If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo, each day
And the past that cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful, you just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified, when they lived alone
Repeat chorus
Some kind of beautiful (will come your way)
(x4)
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no no no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone
Repeat chorus
jes...glad ur project with the bitches is over...now u can just heck them and they can talk behind ur back for all u give a damn....haha...and baked rice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!after friday k...wah lau...i just got paid...and for the first time in my life the money is just sitting in my account...hahahahahahaha......i'm such a good girl......
ching!!where did u go?
k babes...gonna go to the library...to do research on socrates...haha...who apparently looks like a stingray....
adios sweeties...
after 12 years of doing crap that u don't enjoy in uni u'll get to do what u enjoy doing...u dun have to take maths if u dun wanna and u can just choose to do what u want...the teachers are rite when they say just cross this hurdle and everything will be fine after that...i'm not saying uni is completely stress-free but at least u enjoy the subjects ur taking...like i'm taking philosophy which i totally enjoy...its mind boggling and i've a 2000 word essay due monday but its actually fun.i'm willingly doing it.i dun have to force myself to sit down and do the essay.its good stress.i bet u can't really imagine urself wanting to study rite now but trust me...just get thru this and everything will be totally fine...
imagine what i was going thru last yr lor...with my parents and all...its a miracle i got thru my a's really....
keep reminding urself that its just a few more days...then u'll be flying to laces all over the world rite...=)
my mom said that she's afraid of me...cos whenever she argues with me i shoot back at her and say hurting things...but i'm like that.i'm not very good at mincing my words.but do try.but when i'm upset all that goes out the window.i don't mean to hurt her..........sigh....i mean she's the one who betrayed my trust.why is it that i'm feeling shitty then?
rathi...dun be too stressed lah...maybe u did play a bit too much but now no choice la...u reap what u sow...i also left all my reading to the last minute...haven't finished one text and we're starting on another one next week.wah its crazy man 6 texts in 3 months?!?!?!we did 6 texts for 2 years lor in jc........
anyway i think this song by robbie's really appropriate now...
Something Beautiful
You can’t manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful - that day.
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical - these days
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign, the loving kind
every night you admit defeat
and cry yourself blind
Chorus
If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo, each day
And the past that cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful, you just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified, when they lived alone
Repeat chorus
Some kind of beautiful (will come your way)
(x4)
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no no no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone
Repeat chorus
jes...glad ur project with the bitches is over...now u can just heck them and they can talk behind ur back for all u give a damn....haha...and baked rice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!after friday k...wah lau...i just got paid...and for the first time in my life the money is just sitting in my account...hahahahahahaha......i'm such a good girl......
ching!!where did u go?
k babes...gonna go to the library...to do research on socrates...haha...who apparently looks like a stingray....
adios sweeties...
am so tired recently...ever since my dumn damn hoi assignment...i can literally feel myself growing old....sigh...suddenly so stressful...guess i played to much? gotta start working my ass off...its scary to see people in skool studying like tehre's no tomorrow... its amazing but yah what the hell... hmmm...nothing nice happening right now...as a matter of fact on top of skool work i have so many things to think abt...but i juz choose to think though i duin have to think so hard....blame me for being so stupid...i need my beauty sleep again...i need it back!!!! argh...think i am gonna sleep noww....tmrw no skool...thank god!! if not chia-lat!! gotta study full time tmrw...so we'll see how it goes..... reallie enjoyed toking to u guys that day.,...all the bestest memories in the world came back to me...miss u all lots man...as in lots...if there's a lost soul around, its gotta be minee.....
jan...u chill ok...i guess ur mum was reallie put into a shit position but dun blame her...i think i ought to shoot that stupid bro of urs...that idiotic prick!! deserves to be shot in the head....
jes... u take care too man...dun overload urslef with probs after probs like me...its a brain drain and brain strain!!....love ya gal...felt so nice toking to u!!
twin...noe ur having exams now...hang in there okie?? will do well for sure...and u can join me here!! haha... i dunno why but i hope u wud come here!!! let me start prayin now!! love ya!
love ya all....missing ya in infinite amts...muakz!!
love, rat
jan...u chill ok...i guess ur mum was reallie put into a shit position but dun blame her...i think i ought to shoot that stupid bro of urs...that idiotic prick!! deserves to be shot in the head....
jes... u take care too man...dun overload urslef with probs after probs like me...its a brain drain and brain strain!!....love ya gal...felt so nice toking to u!!
twin...noe ur having exams now...hang in there okie?? will do well for sure...and u can join me here!! haha... i dunno why but i hope u wud come here!!! let me start prayin now!! love ya!
love ya all....missing ya in infinite amts...muakz!!
love, rat
the thing is my mom got so mad at me for insinuating that she's to ask for my permission before using MY laptop.that i'm not repecting the fact that she's an adult and capable of making her own decisions.
my laptop.mine.MINE.guess who was using it when i came home today.my idiot brother.guess who gave him permission.my dad.guess who pays for my laptop.me and my mom.half half.and i told her she could share it with me on the condition that my idiot brothers NEVER touch my laptop.i made her promise.i'm bloody pissed.i wasn't pissed at her.i was mad at my dad for giving permission to use sth thats not his.they didn't even ask me.or tell me.or anything.its like yah my laptops not mine rite.%^&I#@*^
so i cry in the bathroom for ten minutes before realizing that while i'm crying my eyes out my idiot brother is STILL using my laptop.so i wiped my tears and took my laptop back to my room.they'd even unravelled the wire that connects my laptop to the power supply which i'd weaved in and out and under my desk so that there won't be so many wires on my table.totally made a mess of my files on my desk.
i couldn't really decide who i was mad at cos i wasn't sure who gave him permission to use my laptop.i went to my parent's room to clarify.i asked and my dad said he did.then i asked who's password was used.my mom said hers.i said fine then walked back to my room.
sigh...
i just found out that they were checking on my brother every 5 minutes.which i'm grateful for.but the point is that my mom broke a promise she'd made me.its like she didn't care.that my wishes weren't important to her.if she'd bothered to tell me or call me or something (i was in the airport studyin with paolo) i'd have come back and helped my brother find his stuff.i would have found some middle ground.i'm also bloody pissed at my dad's notion that my laptop is not mine.i worked hard for the money and i bought it.but he says its not mine.cos apparently whatever is in this house belongs to everybody.bullshit.
god i'm still seething.i'm so so so so so so so pissed.
so i cry in the bathroom for ten minutes before realizing that while i'm crying my eyes out my idiot brother is STILL using my laptop.so i wiped my tears and took my laptop back to my room.they'd even unravelled the wire that connects my laptop to the power supply which i'd weaved in and out and under my desk so that there won't be so many wires on my table.totally made a mess of my files on my desk.
i couldn't really decide who i was mad at cos i wasn't sure who gave him permission to use my laptop.i went to my parent's room to clarify.i asked and my dad said he did.then i asked who's password was used.my mom said hers.i said fine then walked back to my room.
sigh...
i just found out that they were checking on my brother every 5 minutes.which i'm grateful for.but the point is that my mom broke a promise she'd made me.its like she didn't care.that my wishes weren't important to her.if she'd bothered to tell me or call me or something (i was in the airport studyin with paolo) i'd have come back and helped my brother find his stuff.i would have found some middle ground.i'm also bloody pissed at my dad's notion that my laptop is not mine.i worked hard for the money and i bought it.but he says its not mine.cos apparently whatever is in this house belongs to everybody.bullshit.
god i'm still seething.i'm so so so so so so so pissed.
Monday, September 15, 2003
hey peepes i'm in my school com lab now...stoning before lecture at 4.i'm damn stressed can got test tomorrow and I HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING!!!!!!!!!!!*PANIC*
ask ur ma to bring over ur carrom board lah...haha since she's coming she might as well bring sth for u rite...
i scalded my middle finger on my right hand!!!!!what an odd coincidence...
whats with rathi and sidhaesh man....she won't tell me anything conclusive so ching its up to u to tell me....any sparks flying? (haha i accidentally typed spanks earlier...if got any spanks flying also must tell me...heehee...kinky....)send photo leh...to my email...or upload...
soccer...i'm staying up practically every weekend and wednesday to watch soccer man...its kinda sleep depriving...this wednesday must sleep the whole day....and dun worry lah i'm sure they'll show the euro 2004 matches so next year u can have ur fill of soccer....my darlings italy and spain will be playing...
yeah it was fun talking to u guys after so long...wish we could just crap like before when its like not costing millions to call overseas man...
thats stupid jes...supposed to meet her on wedensday then last minute cannot...sunday then again cancelled on me...she forever playing me out...i ate my baked rice liao...if u want we can go to swensons u eat baked rice i eat ice cream...sticky chewy chocolate yum yum!!!!
k gotta go lecture at 4...shall blog tonite...
ask ur ma to bring over ur carrom board lah...haha since she's coming she might as well bring sth for u rite...
i scalded my middle finger on my right hand!!!!!what an odd coincidence...
whats with rathi and sidhaesh man....she won't tell me anything conclusive so ching its up to u to tell me....any sparks flying? (haha i accidentally typed spanks earlier...if got any spanks flying also must tell me...heehee...kinky....)send photo leh...to my email...or upload...
soccer...i'm staying up practically every weekend and wednesday to watch soccer man...its kinda sleep depriving...this wednesday must sleep the whole day....and dun worry lah i'm sure they'll show the euro 2004 matches so next year u can have ur fill of soccer....my darlings italy and spain will be playing...
yeah it was fun talking to u guys after so long...wish we could just crap like before when its like not costing millions to call overseas man...
thats stupid jes...supposed to meet her on wedensday then last minute cannot...sunday then again cancelled on me...she forever playing me out...i ate my baked rice liao...if u want we can go to swensons u eat baked rice i eat ice cream...sticky chewy chocolate yum yum!!!!
k gotta go lecture at 4...shall blog tonite...
Sunday, September 14, 2003
heloooo i was the last one to blog...so i was waiting for someone else to blog before i can add my 2 cents worth rite... and ching how come ur entry got cut halfway?
anyway i'm alone at home now...my family went to kl on friday and are comin back later tonite.had pizza hut's baked rice for lunch today...its damn nice i tell ya...but cannot beat the swenson's one lah....sigh jes played me out again today...supposed to go for baked rice den last min cannot make it...why?cos she stayed over at a chalet last nite and her parents are upset...remember the GAZILLION times we asked her to stay overnite?cannot....haiz....
i wonder how sheryl's doin....
ok anyway i gotta study for a test now...pity its a sunday i can't go to the sirport to study...tmr also cannot go cos got friends and smallville....
*braindead*
anyway i'm alone at home now...my family went to kl on friday and are comin back later tonite.had pizza hut's baked rice for lunch today...its damn nice i tell ya...but cannot beat the swenson's one lah....sigh jes played me out again today...supposed to go for baked rice den last min cannot make it...why?cos she stayed over at a chalet last nite and her parents are upset...remember the GAZILLION times we asked her to stay overnite?cannot....haiz....
i wonder how sheryl's doin....
ok anyway i gotta study for a test now...pity its a sunday i can't go to the sirport to study...tmr also cannot go cos got friends and smallville....
*braindead*
hello peeps...wassup man!! how come no one is blogging?? the blog is kinda stagnant the past few days...quite sad sia!!hmm...so how is everything going?? i am kinda stressed lor...exams are round the corner...literally...feeling so scared and shit... the bloody indonesians are so bloody hardworking that its amazing man i tell u!!...shit... sigh...anyway...i hope i will do ok...anyway pls pray for us okie??
jan, what test u having on mon?? jan.... i am going mad....toking to u abt singapore hero now..haha.. my hero... oh man..i so miss him... miss him more everyday...haha... oko i am mad... gotta go study now..ciao!
jan, what test u having on mon?? jan.... i am going mad....toking to u abt singapore hero now..haha.. my hero... oh man..i so miss him... miss him more everyday...haha... oko i am mad... gotta go study now..ciao!
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
i almost died laughing at the tis the season to be bleeding...and almost had a heart attack when ching said she may not be able to meet us!!!!wat the toot?!?!?i dun care lor we'll sneak into ur house at 3 am or sth...hahaha phee and i will be having exams then lor...22nd i have one...hahahahaha....
so sad u know....friends season is endin...and racheal still hasn't told joey anything...i feel so sad for her...haiz...and phoebe's gnna marry mike...and in smallville lex is marrying helen...2 proposals in 1 day....cannot tahan...i was tearing at both...i think when i reaally get proposed to i'll be crying so much i won't be able to say yes...hahaha...
i just ended my best fren lalala....strawberry shortcakes...hahahahaha....
wah lau rathi.....cannot share share ah...selfish....i have all the rights on the entire nation of spain ok...and italy...dun care if he's a tennis player or a soccer player or hockey player.all MINE!!!!muahahahahahaha...eh rathi...one day we go watch the us open for real ok?like there in the us...quite fun man...speakin of soccer player...reminds me of shokubutsu...so sad that roddick won...i find him a bit arrogant...the way he plays and his tantrums...like trying to attract attention...
babes concentrate on exams k?u'll do very very very well!!!!!!!!!!i know u guys will!!!
jes and i going to swensons soon...for baked rice...hahahahaha....
orlando bloom is like damn bloody hot.i still haven't watched pirates of the carribean...
anyway got loadsssss of work to do...shall blog more tmr when i'm more free!!!=)
adios sweetums...
so sad u know....friends season is endin...and racheal still hasn't told joey anything...i feel so sad for her...haiz...and phoebe's gnna marry mike...and in smallville lex is marrying helen...2 proposals in 1 day....cannot tahan...i was tearing at both...i think when i reaally get proposed to i'll be crying so much i won't be able to say yes...hahaha...
i just ended my best fren lalala....strawberry shortcakes...hahahahaha....
wah lau rathi.....cannot share share ah...selfish....i have all the rights on the entire nation of spain ok...and italy...dun care if he's a tennis player or a soccer player or hockey player.all MINE!!!!muahahahahahaha...eh rathi...one day we go watch the us open for real ok?like there in the us...quite fun man...speakin of soccer player...reminds me of shokubutsu...so sad that roddick won...i find him a bit arrogant...the way he plays and his tantrums...like trying to attract attention...
babes concentrate on exams k?u'll do very very very well!!!!!!!!!!i know u guys will!!!
jes and i going to swensons soon...for baked rice...hahahahaha....
orlando bloom is like damn bloody hot.i still haven't watched pirates of the carribean...
anyway got loadsssss of work to do...shall blog more tmr when i'm more free!!!=)
adios sweetums...
Monday, September 08, 2003
hey everybody....
its me again...yes yes...blogging after a very long time i noe!!! not my fault la...u see, the damn comps in skool were down last week...i si wanted to blog on friday...went to 2 different comp labs at 2 diff places but all the systems were down and i couldnt blog...couldnt blog from home becoz our house fone didnt have any credits...so yah, how to go online?? thats why la...gotta top up our fone line credits coz it operates on this kinda pre-paid system la...then i'll log more often okie?? ching is not blogging due to the same reasons and ya, coz she's been BUSY too...
and yah, guess what? i finally got my best frenz...but its really really bad now?? coz i missed it for 6 weeks...so now its like double power!!! its horrible man...i'd tell u guys the whole story if not for the fact that so many tom, dick and harry having our blog add...its kinda embarassing when other read it as well u noe....
hey jes: i am proud of u babe...u did lim jinn proud!! haha...dun kill me...must have been her ever persistant efforts in teaching us maths right?? my ass man...haha...but its good that ur doing welll...it'll make u feel good and also, u will work for the rest just as hard...
jan.... i noe carlos ferrero is cute...unfortunatly, i am sad to inform u that he's ALREADY MINE!!!!...him, henman, lapentti, safin and all the cutie pies are mine!!! tennis players rock right??haha....see! i knew it... and what isit that u wanted to tell us???!!?!!?!!?!?!?!?!? dun say something like that and just leave us hanging in the air can???? eh jan, email me...then we can tok tok...haha... u can be my confidante as well.... if u noe what i mean... i am so fed up now i tell u... i dunno why i must get my thing like this...its the most horrible time that my best fren has been so inconsiderate!!!!!!! erm... my best fren is a personification of something else sisters....am sure u lit students noe what i mean... sigh... its a season to be bleeding FALALALALA-LALALALA!!!
ADIOS! LOVE,
TENNIS ROCKSTER!!
its me again...yes yes...blogging after a very long time i noe!!! not my fault la...u see, the damn comps in skool were down last week...i si wanted to blog on friday...went to 2 different comp labs at 2 diff places but all the systems were down and i couldnt blog...couldnt blog from home becoz our house fone didnt have any credits...so yah, how to go online?? thats why la...gotta top up our fone line credits coz it operates on this kinda pre-paid system la...then i'll log more often okie?? ching is not blogging due to the same reasons and ya, coz she's been BUSY too...
and yah, guess what? i finally got my best frenz...but its really really bad now?? coz i missed it for 6 weeks...so now its like double power!!! its horrible man...i'd tell u guys the whole story if not for the fact that so many tom, dick and harry having our blog add...its kinda embarassing when other read it as well u noe....
hey jes: i am proud of u babe...u did lim jinn proud!! haha...dun kill me...must have been her ever persistant efforts in teaching us maths right?? my ass man...haha...but its good that ur doing welll...it'll make u feel good and also, u will work for the rest just as hard...
jan.... i noe carlos ferrero is cute...unfortunatly, i am sad to inform u that he's ALREADY MINE!!!!...him, henman, lapentti, safin and all the cutie pies are mine!!! tennis players rock right??haha....see! i knew it... and what isit that u wanted to tell us???!!?!!?!!?!?!?!?!? dun say something like that and just leave us hanging in the air can???? eh jan, email me...then we can tok tok...haha... u can be my confidante as well.... if u noe what i mean... i am so fed up now i tell u... i dunno why i must get my thing like this...its the most horrible time that my best fren has been so inconsiderate!!!!!!! erm... my best fren is a personification of something else sisters....am sure u lit students noe what i mean... sigh... its a season to be bleeding FALALALALA-LALALALA!!!
ADIOS! LOVE,
TENNIS ROCKSTER!!
Sunday, September 07, 2003
k to cut a long story short...
i had an extremely odd dream last nite...i dreamt the ARGENTINIAN NATIONAL TEAM came to sg to play (including pablo aimar who's the pretty cute guy who plays for valencia as well) and i was talking to aimar after the game like we were old frens...then he asked me wat i had to do aft this and i said i had...get this...history in nus with andrew lim...but thats not all..he goes for that class too!!and so we both went for lecture together.and he was still in his jersey...like HUH?!?!?
k i have a theory i came back late last nite and watched like 4-5 matches...holland vs austria,iceland vs germany,england vs macedonia,spain vs portugal, argentina vs chile and the us open match between ferrero and agassi...ya and i was flipping between the matches lah cos some were going on at the same time...i slept at 6 plus and atrted watching at 12 plus...so 6 hrs marathon of soccer....plus i was doing history earlier...and i was talking to a senior whos from tp also abt andrew lim...so i think everything got jumbled in my brain...sigh but aimar is quite cute..in a non conventional cute sorta way...
yes i know i'm weird.
oh my goodness seriously this spanish tennis player juan carlos ferrero is like bloody hot man i swear....he's mine...rathi u can take layton hewitt...or roddick?roddick's a bit bulky for my taste...hahahaha...finals are at 4 am tmr...fat chance i'm staying up to watch...got so much reading to do...but i really wanna watch too...ferrero vs roddick should be quite cool...bith are damn young also...21 and 22...they're practically our age...can u imagine...
shux man i must must learn spanish and go get a spanish husband...my ricky's engaged so...morientes also can lah...really no problem with me....hahahahahahaha.....
yesh yesh jes we must go for baked rice soon...preferably before the 20th...got dental then.*rolls eyes*and regarding the coffee guys...wat to do?i'm so gorgeous they just can't help it...hahahahahahahahaha.....
heehee...got sth else to tell u guys too but tell u when u call or sth....scared got prying eyes...hahahahahahahahahahaha....
adios loveys!!
i had an extremely odd dream last nite...i dreamt the ARGENTINIAN NATIONAL TEAM came to sg to play (including pablo aimar who's the pretty cute guy who plays for valencia as well) and i was talking to aimar after the game like we were old frens...then he asked me wat i had to do aft this and i said i had...get this...history in nus with andrew lim...but thats not all..he goes for that class too!!and so we both went for lecture together.and he was still in his jersey...like HUH?!?!?
k i have a theory i came back late last nite and watched like 4-5 matches...holland vs austria,iceland vs germany,england vs macedonia,spain vs portugal, argentina vs chile and the us open match between ferrero and agassi...ya and i was flipping between the matches lah cos some were going on at the same time...i slept at 6 plus and atrted watching at 12 plus...so 6 hrs marathon of soccer....plus i was doing history earlier...and i was talking to a senior whos from tp also abt andrew lim...so i think everything got jumbled in my brain...sigh but aimar is quite cute..in a non conventional cute sorta way...
yes i know i'm weird.
oh my goodness seriously this spanish tennis player juan carlos ferrero is like bloody hot man i swear....he's mine...rathi u can take layton hewitt...or roddick?roddick's a bit bulky for my taste...hahahaha...finals are at 4 am tmr...fat chance i'm staying up to watch...got so much reading to do...but i really wanna watch too...ferrero vs roddick should be quite cool...bith are damn young also...21 and 22...they're practically our age...can u imagine...
shux man i must must learn spanish and go get a spanish husband...my ricky's engaged so...morientes also can lah...really no problem with me....hahahahahahaha.....
yesh yesh jes we must go for baked rice soon...preferably before the 20th...got dental then.*rolls eyes*and regarding the coffee guys...wat to do?i'm so gorgeous they just can't help it...hahahahahahahahaha.....
heehee...got sth else to tell u guys too but tell u when u call or sth....scared got prying eyes...hahahahahahahahahahaha....
adios loveys!!
Thursday, September 04, 2003
wah kaoz got losta work to do man...i'm beginning to feel the strain...lecture notes and stuff every once in awhile must review so that i won't forget wats going on...ya for the first time in my life i'm doing CONSISTANT WORK...think uni cannot last minute all....its way too scary...somemore 5 modules so if i last min everything i think i'll just die a horribly painful death...
JES AND PHEEEE wat do u mean everyone has to go thru this wisdom tooth thingy?i have all 4 and they're ok so my dentist said no need to take out...i may have to take out one lah...but not too sure yet...but i extracted tooth before wat its not the same is it?not that painful when i extracted...or maybe cos i'm used to mouth pain (braces) then i didn't really feel it....
oh fantastic news!!!!my dentist said if eveything goes according to plan i could be braces free by DECEMBER!!!!!yay!!!!!!then when i go aus can kope all the hunky aussie surfer dudes man....aaaaaaaaahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wah lau just now was talkin to jes and we started talkin abt fish and chips and baked rice from swensons....wah damn long haven't eaten at swensons..i think the lasttime i ate was sometime in june...early june that is...sigh...i can literally smelll it now......aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
oh maybe cos its 5 plus and i haven't had lunch yet...so much work to do man seriously i was watching a lecture (webcast cos i refuse to wake up at 6 sth and travel all the way to school) then printed all my notes and stuff then some more got history tutorial to prepare for...
wah must tell u last nite i went to the airport to study and my der darling terence wasn't there but i went anyway...so sad u know i can't help missing him and his nonsense...repeated playing of nelly's dillemma,rnb songs...him playing ching's avril lavign cd...sigh...anyway went there then i filled my card with the drink i bought lah so i went to claim my free drink and i ordered sth called the caramba ice blended and i was supposed to pay extra $2 but the guy said nvm its ok...and gave it to me FOC!!!!!hahaha!!!so i saved 2 bucks!!!hahahahahaha.....poalo was like wah lau.....beepbeepbeep....
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..................................................................................................
sunny day...i think i better have lunch now before i die...will blog more later...adios sweeties...
JES AND PHEEEE wat do u mean everyone has to go thru this wisdom tooth thingy?i have all 4 and they're ok so my dentist said no need to take out...i may have to take out one lah...but not too sure yet...but i extracted tooth before wat its not the same is it?not that painful when i extracted...or maybe cos i'm used to mouth pain (braces) then i didn't really feel it....
oh fantastic news!!!!my dentist said if eveything goes according to plan i could be braces free by DECEMBER!!!!!yay!!!!!!then when i go aus can kope all the hunky aussie surfer dudes man....aaaaaaaaahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wah lau just now was talkin to jes and we started talkin abt fish and chips and baked rice from swensons....wah damn long haven't eaten at swensons..i think the lasttime i ate was sometime in june...early june that is...sigh...i can literally smelll it now......aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
oh maybe cos its 5 plus and i haven't had lunch yet...so much work to do man seriously i was watching a lecture (webcast cos i refuse to wake up at 6 sth and travel all the way to school) then printed all my notes and stuff then some more got history tutorial to prepare for...
wah must tell u last nite i went to the airport to study and my der darling terence wasn't there but i went anyway...so sad u know i can't help missing him and his nonsense...repeated playing of nelly's dillemma,rnb songs...him playing ching's avril lavign cd...sigh...anyway went there then i filled my card with the drink i bought lah so i went to claim my free drink and i ordered sth called the caramba ice blended and i was supposed to pay extra $2 but the guy said nvm its ok...and gave it to me FOC!!!!!hahaha!!!so i saved 2 bucks!!!hahahahahaha.....poalo was like wah lau.....beepbeepbeep....
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..................................................................................................
sunny day...i think i better have lunch now before i die...will blog more later...adios sweeties...
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
Still On Your Side
I'm still on your side
You found a place where youu belong
New freinds who can do no wrong
That's what you believe
But who's gonna be there when you fail
To build you up when you're feeling small
Give you love that you need
Who will? I will
When the whole world turns against you
Ain't no lies
Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you're going through
I'm still on you side (still on your side)
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
You wanna run and you want to break free
But what you want ain't what you need
Can't you see that I care
I know I'm hard on you sometimes
But when you're looking for the things
you can't find
Don't you know who will be there
Who will? I will
When it's more than you can handle
Ain't no lie
Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you're going through
I'm still on you side (still on your side)
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
I'll be there (I'll be there, I'll be there)
I'll be there when you need me
I won't let you go
There's nothing I want to do, I'll be there, you know
Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you're going through
I'm still on you side (still on your side)
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
I will still (I will) be around (gonna be around)
When the others let you down
I'm still on your side (Still on your side)
Any time you need help and you can't find
nobody else
I'm still on your side (still on your side)
I'm still on your side (still on your side)
I'm still on your side (still on your side
I'm still on your side
You found a place where youu belong
New freinds who can do no wrong
That's what you believe
But who's gonna be there when you fail
To build you up when you're feeling small
Give you love that you need
Who will? I will
When the whole world turns against you
Ain't no lies
Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you're going through
I'm still on you side (still on your side)
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
You wanna run and you want to break free
But what you want ain't what you need
Can't you see that I care
I know I'm hard on you sometimes
But when you're looking for the things
you can't find
Don't you know who will be there
Who will? I will
When it's more than you can handle
Ain't no lie
Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you're going through
I'm still on you side (still on your side)
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
I'll be there (I'll be there, I'll be there)
I'll be there when you need me
I won't let you go
There's nothing I want to do, I'll be there, you know
Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you're going through
I'm still on you side (still on your side)
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
I will still (I will) be around (gonna be around)
When the others let you down
I'm still on your side (Still on your side)
Any time you need help and you can't find
nobody else
I'm still on your side (still on your side)
I'm still on your side (still on your side)
I'm still on your side (still on your side
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
aiyoh u guys...wats happening man....
I'm really worried too...rathi...i'm so sorry ur birthday ended in tears sweetie...i wish that hadn't happened...gosh...when i read ur entry i started tearing cos i know wat its like to have a sucky birthday...u guys made my birthday so perfect for me last year i wish i could have been there to do the same for u...nvm...for now i'll just tell u this k...watch ur mail....=) and wats this abt 1 slipper?like 1?not a pair?
ching girl...wats goin on in ur relationship...maybe u can talk to x?i mean i think that shud balance time with frens and stead rite?i'm not gonna blame u for anything k it must have been pretty serious for u to have not been with rathi that nite and i hope and pray that ur ok and that things are better now...
please try and work things out and stick together dearies...u guys only have each other there...no matter who else comes into ur lives while ur there keep in mind that u guys are like family...and basic rule of thumb's that family comes before anything else...it gonna come to 2 months that u guys are there u still have a few more years (and birthdays) to go...hang on and look after each other k...i love u guys both very very very much and it reallllly worries me that u guys are having problems...ultimate aim is to be happy k?so try and understand wat each other is goin thru...
and pls call me if anything too k?i'll call one of u tmr...its a bit too late now...
nitez sweeties....
I'm really worried too...rathi...i'm so sorry ur birthday ended in tears sweetie...i wish that hadn't happened...gosh...when i read ur entry i started tearing cos i know wat its like to have a sucky birthday...u guys made my birthday so perfect for me last year i wish i could have been there to do the same for u...nvm...for now i'll just tell u this k...watch ur mail....=) and wats this abt 1 slipper?like 1?not a pair?
ching girl...wats goin on in ur relationship...maybe u can talk to x?i mean i think that shud balance time with frens and stead rite?i'm not gonna blame u for anything k it must have been pretty serious for u to have not been with rathi that nite and i hope and pray that ur ok and that things are better now...
please try and work things out and stick together dearies...u guys only have each other there...no matter who else comes into ur lives while ur there keep in mind that u guys are like family...and basic rule of thumb's that family comes before anything else...it gonna come to 2 months that u guys are there u still have a few more years (and birthdays) to go...hang on and look after each other k...i love u guys both very very very much and it reallllly worries me that u guys are having problems...ultimate aim is to be happy k?so try and understand wat each other is goin thru...
and pls call me if anything too k?i'll call one of u tmr...its a bit too late now...
nitez sweeties....
