roam the WAT?! k...lemme tell u guys...my mom's in the hospital now...she's undergoing an op to remove her womb..yes i'm bloody worried and its so hard to visit her also cos can only visit from 12-2 and 6-8 and somehow or the other i seem to have tutorials during that time.its bloooody annoying.and i'm worried and she's scared out of her wits.

secondly khadijah and i aregoing thru a real rough patch.to cut a long story short she has a crush on this guy she hangs aroud with and she feels threatened by me for some reason so she's trying to keep me as far away from him as possible.i've met him once and she kept sayin that he was checkin me out which i didn't think he was doing.she was so upset the whole evening.wat was i supposed to do?!!?i admit i do find him cute and would like to know him better but she has a crush on him so fine i'll keep my distance..there's no reason to be threatened by me!!i'm the one who took one month to talk to terence remember!!!!!!! *exasperated* i tried being as annoying as possible...it half worked cos his fren thought i was annoying...but he didn't say anything...or if he did she's not tellin me...and she came up with this whole i don't like my social circles mingling which i think is a bunch of bull.and she's literally been avoiding me.i don't like this.everything's awkward with her now.and i'll probably never see him again cos she's gdoing her bestest to keep us from meeting.watever lah.thats not as impt as the change in our level of comfort with each other.

ugh.

love,
your gonna-be-single-forever-sister,
janani

it doth seem that these past moons, plans that hath been made, faileth to happen.due to unforseen circumstances,or rather the failure to adhere to our plans,thy humble servant (me) seriously doubteth that come the month of christmas,we will be frolicking on the beaches down under.*sob* it is with great sadness and heart wrenching regret that i informest thou that it is improbable that we shall be flying to the city of melbourne where thou now resideth to see thy sweet smile.

no money lah...i wish i had...for my birthday top of my wishlist is a return ticket to melbourne.i already told my parents.but i reli reli have no money...my mom said next yr june would be better and realistically speaking i think so too cos i'll be working during the break so i'm sure i'll be able to save enough...at least for the ticket.

deepavali is not gonna be a happy event at my house...i mean with my grandfather and all...i wish we could go to kl my my dad can't get leave...well at least i have one silver lining...the african performance that i'm going for with zongying...that was postponed from may...oh well...i'll send u some goodies to eat k?

wah u guys becoming clubber-holics ah!?!?every week go clubbing...i haven't been since arts bash in august...thats like BLOODY long...either plans dun work out or i'm never free...these two weeks have been torturous with the essays...today i just found out that i've another essay due on monday...thank god my fren reminded me...or else i'd have clean forgotten...

jes, sheryl...when u guys have come back from whatever distant planet ur on can organize a clubbing outing...my hair's lookin reli good past few days...hahahahahah...

i wanna straighten my hair...not rebond dun panick...but straighten...so that its sorta straight instead of wavy like now...dunno how much it'll cost tho...so gotta find out...if its too ex i'll dye it or streak dark purple.

feel gothicky suddenly.but i have no black clothes...and i dunno how to wear eyeliner...

ohmygod there are some girls in school who wear makeup!!!to school!!!actually most of them do.i'm the only idiot who walks around with no powder no lipgloss....my mom screams at me all them time sayin i should atleast have powder and lipgloss...but its all gonna come off anywy...and i can't be bother to touch up and dunno what shit all...

ratz, come over lah if u can...if u can't i understand...but it'll be great if u do...=)

i need to exercise!!!!i have a tummy!!!!!*shudders* when i sit down there are TWO tyres!!!!*horror*

yep well blog more often y'all...i come online everyday check my mail check the blog and check friendster.i dunno what i'm gonna do in december in kl with no internet.i could bring my lappy and pretend i'm on the net but...hahahaha...need to get some games...anything to recommend?

adios chicas

i thot u all coming?? now all not coming uh??...,SIGH...i dunno if i will be coming over with ching u noe...sigh...i feel so sad now...jan!! i wanna come for deepavali!!!!....i miss the tarts...and good food...and everything!!!!....aiyoh...last yr exams never enjoy...this yr oso cannot enjoy...what sia??...so saddening!!...sigh sigh...
ching and i are missing clubbing...we havent gone for only a week and we miss it already...kinda funny aint it??....oh well...so we're going later i think...
gonna be fun i suppose...hehe...dunno la...need to dance and exercise abit....oh well....i am having a heacdache now...i am missing everyone...

the two like disappeared...sheryl got exams ok lah but she doesn't reply to sms also!!!!*fume* and jes is like MIA...since that day asking if i cud go for oktoberfest...

hey jes my seniors are putting up their graduation play (theatre studies majors) on the 29th of Oct.u interested in going? should be quite good lah and its not very ex also...i'll most prob be going lah...so lemme know?got enuff to keep me sane already...next week got dinner and the african performance to go for...then the week after got another dinner and performance...think my plate's quite full...on top of everything exams are in a month's time...

yeah well...thats it...busy with arts club stuff...did i tell u guys i'm the publicity i/c...yeah then cheerleading...(don't laugh i need to get fit)...aside from that i've got this niggling feeling that something's missing from my life...and when it comes in my life will be complete.but i dunno wat that thing is...

oh well....

ok....i bought a jersey on ebay...but now i dunno how to pay for it.its quite annoyin.i've been on hold for like 10 minutes!!!DBS is supposed to have a 24hr customer service thingy ...*fume*i need to get some code from them in order to pay.they keep playiing clown music and saying "you can pay your dbs and posb credit card bills at all dbs and posb atms.payments can also be made at more than 180 axs machines islandwide.thank you for waiting.your call is important to us and will be answered by the first available officer."repeat.bloody annoying.

my grandad's cancer is back.its growing and spreading again.the docs say that he won't make it to the next deepavali.so my fam might be going down to kl this deepavali and definitely in decmeber.i'll be going there whenever i can.i feel like crying but i can't seem to squeeze any tears out.its like the well is dry.i dunno.i dunnno anything.

i had to tell u guys.i just discovered that for my philosophy assignment i got 23/25!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!thats like an A+!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my goodness meeeeeeeee.......

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haha dun get headache...

today stayed in school till 10 doing work...roamed around the library like an idiot cos i didn't know where everything was...so many stories some more!!!its like 6 stories of books books and more books!!!!!!!!craziness....then when i tried to borrow the books the machine wasn't warking and i thought that it was my fault that i wasn't using the thing correctly then i asked the librarian how to use it and it turned out that i was rite after all!!!and she thought i was a gong.*sigh*

2 essays due next week...one pol science essay due on the 17th...history essay due on the 13th...*pulls out hair* all last minute work as usual...

and i changed my shampoo and i highly recommend l'oreal elseve inner strength shampoo...its like so creamy and feels heavenly when ur washing ur hair...and its good for the hair too...

argh exams in 1 and 1/2 months!!!!its like i just started school!!!!and i can't study if i'm still rushing essays and stuff rite....its so odd really...i dunno where all that time went...2 months have whizzed by like nothing...

ratz...its not a "new guy"...its just A guy...who i SUSPECT likes me...dunno anything for sure yet...and anyway i've had enuff with guys for now...he's ok lah...not bad...=)eye candy lah! dun worry...i'm eating...when i can...the thing is i study at nite and wake up late so my entire body clock has shifted and i'm now nocturnal.so i eat luch during dinner and dinner during supper...but i eat...dun worry...i haven't lost weight...my jeans are still tight...and dun worry about ur test results...i'm sure they'll be fine!!wah ur econs is like super power man!!!go show ms ng!!!!hahahahahah....

okidokie lovies gotta go check my friendster then head off to dreamland...oddly i haven't had a dream in eons...nitez!!!

oh good lord...i am also pmsing big time...its so corny...ching and i are both pms-ing at the same time...its amazing aint it??...oh well...shit man u guys wont believe it...we're like getting back our results now...sucks man...at the rate i am going, it feels reallie shitty...dun think i can go to melbourne uni at this rate man...shitty right?? oh well...today's results were quite ok i guess....got back my econs mcq...35/40 which i never got in my life...and got my eap back...english la...that one is not considered a subject that we can include in our best 4 but its just a must to pass it and oh well i did...so no complains abt it...i thot i wud have failed coz i was the only ashole who approached the question differently from the rest of the cohort....nearly died...but thank god i passed....

oh well...tmrw the disaster papers are gonna come...shit head man...its media and comm....one of the worst papers...i had so little time to do anything for it.l..i am so fucking dead...and the other is maths i think...apparently there are afew people who failed...so knowing my luck with maths....i wud have failed it too...wats new man...whats new??? sigh....oh well...ok, will let u guys noe my dooms soon...eh sheryl...heard u guys got ur prelims back?? how didcha do?? well, no matter what the outcome, dun give up yah?? love ya...

jes...wassup gal?? whats happening in skool...under a pile of projects this time aye??

jan....so new guy now aye?? hehe...cute or not?? okok...will send u the pics when i see u online ya?? its already uploaded into the comp...so no worries man...u take care in skool and eat properly...dun wana see the bones left of u when u come back ya??

love always...
ratz

i'm feelin blah.dunno what that is...its like i'm annoyed at how dumb pple are and how blah my life is...but yah well...think its pms...

Ratz...darlin?wat darlin?hahahahahahahahah must must lemme see photos!!u got a techy genius down there make her do lah (sorry ching!) i wish i knew how to upload phots...must but those digital cameras with USB port so easier to upload... now gotta SCAN...and my lappy's not connected to the scanner so must scan in the other com then save then bring to my com...damn leche..anyway yeah i'm most prob gonna stay on campus...must go down to OSA and apply...plus i just joined 2 ccas so it'll be aot better if i stay there...i joined our version of council (publicity ic) and cheerleading...which is not bimbotic!!!!its dancing kinda cheerleading kay?!?

Sheryl...eh how did u do babe?sent u sms but like no reply only lor...u that busy meh? *hmph*

Jesz...wah wat happened to u?wat fat?lemme tell u...nobody here is fat ok!!!!rathi shud also shaddup.seriously u guys...dun get so wat lah...u guys are NOT fat ok!!!but i think i need to tone up...very excited to go gymming but never have the guts or the time to!!!hahaha...i mean all these super fit ppl with fantastic bodies will be there pumping and stuff...and i barely know wat to do anyway...wat if i make a total ass of myself?which i'm sure will happen!!

chingster...hey babe hows it goin?enjoying ur post exam romp with xw huh?*grinz*

oh oh must tell u...just got my first test results back...i got 77/100...the highest was 84!!!!hahahaha...i think it didn't go too bad...i was sooo kancheong and soooo freakin worried..and its ok in the end!!haha...getting back another assignment on tuesday...then another one next thurs...quite exciting...i think i'll be alrite as long as i dun fail...*grin*

some moron called me a few nites ago and said he's met me at dunno what world music and i'd given him my number...i was like HUH?wat world music?i've never been there!!!!and i sure as hell wud have remembered giving someone my number...i was like how did u get my number?and he was like u gave it to me!!*pengz*k then i suggested that he's gotten the wrong number and he was like ur janani rite?ya!!i am!!!but i didn't go to world music and give u my number!!!so weird.then he msged me via friendster and said sorry he was lame and he'd actauuly got my no from a fren who got it from a fren.bloody hell!!!my number's circulating!!!i think i need to change my number!!!!but still got contract lah shitez...wah i was damn pissed...and my mom was like why did u even pick up?it was a strange number so i didn't know who it was...could be my arts club pple rite...ugh...moron...

heehee there's a guy in my PS tutorial who i think likes me...it was so funny that day we were split by our teacher into diff groups to disscuss questions and he came and stood infront of my frens and me (facing me) with a hopeful expression on his face and my fren (in a bright chirpy voice) said hi we're doing question 1 are you?and he was like (disappointed) oh...no...then he looked at me sadly...hahahahaha i swear i almost died laughing...so funny...hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...he's pretty cute lah but he has a very indiany way of talking...and during tutorial i kept refuting his points cos i felt that they didn't make sense...and he kena cornered by me so many times...but this was before i suspected he liked me...hahahahahahahaha.....

oki gonna go sleeeep....ciao bella!!(bye beautiful!!)

feel so energetic now...haha...actually not...am a little sleepy...believe it or not...i slept for 18 hrs today!!!...coz i didnt get a wink of sleep the day b4...went clubbing and came...and had to wake up early to gof or great oceans trip...yep..to see the 12 apostles!!!....and so decided not to sleep so that i cud wake up and wake ching up...coz we have the history of not waking up...yep yep....so yah...about my great oceans...

had lotsa fun there man...though it wasnt exactly the best weather that we wanted...uhhuh...so ya...but tell ya...the waters were GORGEOUS...as in absolutely beautiful...when u guys come here...i will ask my frenz drive us there again okie?? its reallie a great place that u all must go to...aww man...the water is klike greenish blue and all? yeah...took alot of fotos...will send u guys or something...took alot with my darling...haha...yeah...kinda fun la...oh well....yup, so we must go okie???

jes...cheer up man...am oso fat...and u dun care abt ur size one lor...always thinking u look good...and u do the way u are...but excercising and toning up is good too!! no worries...haha...i need to tone up too...my stomach is hanging to the floor...i cant literally feel my face enlarging with multiple chins sia!!

sheryl...how ya doiong love?...hmm...amutha told me she got her results...so how did ya do??...hopefully its what u wanted??,....let us noe how u fared ya?? everyone sucks at prelims...so even if u din get what u want, just work as hard and chill ya?? cantw ait to see ya here soon...love ya babe!

jan...hmm...skool is getting boring ey? well well...get ur dad to let u stay there la...yah i so agree that travelling sucks...have been doing os all my damn life...and it sucked...so yah.l.somemore u will have alot of things to do and will have to stay late in campus...so yah....take all that into consideration...am sure that he will allow...just coax him into it...

oki doki...cant blog alot...ching is waiting to use...will blog some other time....love ya all much...take care....*huggles and smooches*

i think everyone going thru shit of their own lah...haiz...got test tmr.one essay no choice.1 hr.i think i'm gonna end up finishing early cos i won't have anything to write.this module is so dull...i'm glad i didn't leave it to another sem...mite as well take it now n get it over and done with.

i hate travelling.its killing me.skipped tutorial last saturday cos i just cudn't bear the thot of sitting on the damn mrt for 1 hr then goin for 1 hr tutorial and sitting on the train for another hour.i told my dad today that i cannot travel.its taking alot out of me.not just that it drains my energy but i dun feel like going to skool even tho i love my classes.he offered to pick me up from school every other day but i dun think its fair to him...he already spends half his free time shuttling my brothers to and from tuition skool home...if he has to fetch me somemore it'll be too tiring i think.plus he has his own work to do...he's already juggling work and open u...(he's doin his degree from sim...guess that makes my dad and jes skoolmates?) ya so i told him...and i calculated lah rite now i get $200 allowance (which truthfully isn't reli enuff) and $100 transport...instead if i stay on campus it'll cos $1200 and $300 for meals (which are provided : breakfast and dinner) so thats $1500 for the entire sem...6 months...making it $250 a month.saving 50.but i'll prob need that 50 for lunches.but see its the same cost for so so so much more convenience.time,energy etc.skool's pretty self sufficient so i won't need to go out to town or wat.i'lll go home on weekends.my dad said he'll think abt it.

jes...i know how u feel...it happened to me once...bought a hot choc from coffee club in school cost every last cent i had...paid the woman in 5 cent coins too...and it dropped.luckily id didn't kena or pple around me didn't kena...but i flet damn shitty after that.like its the pick-me-up that i needed but that also wasn't fated...dun worry...take ur time to gimme back the money...i still can survive...and i shud be gttin paid in a week or two...*prays hard* and u better pass ur driving man...i need a chauffer!!!=) ur school also in clementi rite? *hint hint* hahahahaha.............................

stayin awake tonite to watch real madrid and porto...champions league...i finally found another girl who's as crazy about soccer as i am...=)wat a refreshing change...

k so i joined NUS arts club charity cell commitee.i'm publicity ic.quite cool lah i think.and i joined NUS cheerleading squad which does cheerleadin US style.but our routine will be more dance based than stunt based.but i'll inevitably be the one on top of the formations and being thrown around will be quite routine for me....i've already experienced all this in tk so i've got some experience...so yeah...training starts in 2 weeks...i reckon i'll get fitter and it'll gimme sth to channel my energy and frustration.i need the extra stuff.cannot imagine just going to school then going home.thats like so bloody boring.i need to have like the ccas and stuff to bond me to the skool...

i have a test tmr which i'm pretty sure i'm gonna flunk...nothing's sticking in my head...its like there're holes in my head or sth...nvm...i'll make it up in the other tests or the finals...this makes up only a percentage of the final grade...and most pple takin this module dunno how to write essays...science pple...so i think i have a slight upper hand...i just have to get my facts straight...


wah this song is so me rite now...not ready for love...nope nope nope....

This thing called love I just can't handle it
This thing called love I must get round to it
I ain't ready
Crazy little thing called love

This thing called love
It cries
In a cradle all night
It swings
It jives
It shakes all over like a jelly fish
I kinda like it
Crazy little thing called love

There goes my baby
She knows how to Rock'n'Roll
She drives my crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat

I gotta be cool relax get hip!
Get on my track
Take a back seat
Hitch hike
And take a long long ride on my motor bike
Until I'm ready
Crazy little thing called love

I gotta be cool relax get hip!
Get on my track
Take a back seat
Hitch hike
And take a long long ride on my motor bike
Until I'm ready
Crazy little thing called love

There goes my baby
She knows how to Rock'n'Roll
She drives my crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat

I gotta be cool relax get hip!
Get on my track
Take a back seat
Hitch hike
And take a long long ride on my motor bike
Until I'm ready
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love

i'm so not ready i think...maybe i ahve to wait a few more lifetimes...i think it shudn't be forced rite...so when and if the rite guy comes along then maybe...but i shudn rush things or try to force feelings....and i damn well shud not confuse feelings of frenship or concern for love...no no...love is too elusive for me rite now so it can wait.i have more impt things now like school and ccas and stuff.but confession...its gonna take alot for a guy to make me love him...i was foolhardy once and i'm so not gonna make the same mistake again...the guy's gonna have to be very very very patient with me...i guess if its meant to be its meant to be....let fate take its course...

jes....see if u can get ur own laptop...can pay in installments..see if ur uni has got a laptop scheme.cos like nus las a loan for students and its interest free till 2 yrs after graduation.so see how lah i guess...if not get a desktop lah...can get one for $999 nowadays from dell...

and i think that i'm pms-ing anyway...period due next week or this week...yah...unless i'm pregnant...=) u never know...

ok girls...gonna stone in front of the tv till 2.30 when my matches start...and jes can i borrow the best of the corrs cd from u to burn it?i lost my copy and i miss it terribly...

oh guys go listen ti micheal buble is u have time..his voice is to die for...if u want a copy of the cd i can burn for u...i bought it...

seeya chickadees...